I’m done with doing things for other people but getting shit on from a great height. Why do I always allow myself to get into such situations? It’s not that I want anything in return apart from kindness and respect and those things come for free. I’m tired of trying to be compassionate and caring to people for them to be not the same. Maybe I’m trying to too hard, I don’t
know maybe I’m just meant to be a loner.
It’s shit when you make a plan with a ‘friend’ for me to message later on to see if they are still wanting to do what was planned for my message to be ignored and not even receive an apology or a lame excuse as to why, it makes me feel like an utter dick and I hate disappointment as much as the next person does but with me it’s one chance and your out. I won’t be asking anymore, I can’t be doing with the unreliability.
Today, I feel downcast I should get over it but lately my emotions have been like a yo-yo up and down, sometimes I was to scream and shout and other times I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I’m no longer going to be the person people can let down anymore, I’m no longer going to be the door mat. It’s time I grew some ball and learn to say no. It’s time to accept that not everyone has the same heart as I do.