Shattered

Last night I was again in the grip of insomnia, tossing and turning and finally succumbing to my awakened soul I stare blankly at the ceiling in the dark. My mind was busy for no sort of reason it just wouldn’t let me sleep and now I’m paying the price.

Today I feel so tired but why is it when I go to bed, I manage to drop off but awake later on on the night? I look at my mobile to try and pass the time but when your awake and everyone is asleep time drags on, it’s a lonely feeling. Seconds feel like minutes and minutes feel like hours.

When I do drop off it always feels I’ve been asleep for 5 minutes, each ring of the alarm and I die a little more inside, why couldn’t I sleep last night! When your tired throughout the day it’s hard to concentrate on anything like doing your job, watching tv or reading the news. Everything just bounces around but you fail to absorb it all.

My head hurts, a dull thumping headache there at the front of my head, a sign I’m tired, it becomes a vicious cycle. Anyone whose had insomnia knows what it feels like not to be able to shut your eyes, toss and turn but you can’t seem to get comfortable in the bed you didn’t have problems with before. It sucks.

Karina

Author: karinao86

Mother of 3 boys, wife to one man and lover of horses. Mental health sufferer in recovery.

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