Emotional

Today is not a great day I feel angry and emotional. I didn’t sleep great last night, and last couple of nights I’ve forgot to take my medication because I’ve been so exhausted. Im feeling irrational and miserable and trying my hardest not to cry but it’s proving a little difficult every waking minute.

My little boy, Noel, behaviour is getting more challenging due to the PWS and I’m finding it difficult to cope with. He is also due to start school September and I don’t feel ready to send him and the whole thing is worrying me so much. I’m just tired of everything, it’s all getting a little much for me.

Mental health is challenging on its own but with a child who has special needs it’s even harder, my anxiety is building each day and today I feel mentally tired and lack the energy for anything, it’s the first time I’ve felt like this for a long time. I feel so utterly alone and isolated it hurts. Nobody can understand what it feels like unless they are going through something similar. So feel utterly helpless and pathetic.

I feel like I’m being swallowed up by my emotions, I can’t even force a fake smile and small talk is hard, I just want to curl up in a corner and ball. Let it all out but i can’t. I feel wound up and on edge, my patience is non existent. I’m wondering why I even bother with anything anymore.

Karina

Author: karinao86

Mother of 3 boys, wife to one man and lover of horses. Mental health sufferer in recovery.

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