I admit it I care too much about friends and family I can be kind, generous and will do anything for anybody but does this make me over caring? Am I open for people to take me fore granted? Does it make me a fool?
I am compassionate and if some one needs my help in a crisis in there ready to give a hand or a shoulder, I think as a child i nobody gave a shit about me so I completely understand how it feels to be uncared for and as an adult I like to look after people. When I was growing up i always wanted to be a paramedic, but my GCSE grades were poor because I didn’t have the support I needed. I was alone doing them and working so struggled to find the time to revise and with things being difficult at the time, my exams were the last thing on my mind, I was a failure and because as I was growing up and I was told I was useless it stuck. I couldn’t even manage to get good grades in my exams so my dream of being a paramedic vanished.
As a teenager I lost hope in the world and the people merely getting by and existing, feeling isolated and no one I could turn to to ask for help. It was an awful time and a time at my lowest I had tried suicide and I even failed at that, obviously.
It’s in my nature to want to help others, I can’t bear the thought of others suffering, no matter the problem I will try and help whether it’s advice or even going to the shop and getting bread because they are poorly. Is it normal to be so kind or am i desperate to be liked by others? I always scared of what other people think of me, it’s a paranoia I can’t seem to shake.
I want to bring comfort to people, even with my blog I want to bring comfort to those in the same boat as me, knowing they are not alone in the rollercoaster rider of mental health.
I am now successful of course not in my dream career but I’m a company director of my family business and I work very hard, I am lucky where I am today and I never thought I would be here.