Lately, I’ve literally taken my health kick seriously as well as trying to keep myself fit. I love the feeling I get after a run, it’s addictive and I always feel great for doing it. I’m running 5k most days, walking 5k every day as well as horse riding, yoga, and some pilates. I feel guilty and basically, rubbish if I don’t do anything. I had even turned down cake!
Mentally I’ve been great, been taking my medication as I should be without it I slip into the darkness again, I don’t ever want to go there again for as long as I live, its frightening place to be, your mind is literally your enemy! Thing is when you’re in a dark hole it is hard to scramble out of, its a lonely and isolating feeling adding to the overwhelming feelings you already have. I’m just grateful that such medications exist!
Exercise is great for the mind, and if you wake up feeling like utter rubbish a brisk 15 minutes stroll can make you feel better, the fresh air. It’s hard to take the steps out of the door, at my lowest low I couldn’t get out of bed. Depression leaves you feeling fatigued and tired especially if you have insomnia too. Many people with mental health issues soon find coping strategies or something that helps to boost your spirits. Whether it is painting, reading, doing a puzzle it’s keeping your mind from wandering.
I’ve learned yoga helps with my stresses of day to day life, I have to be flexible to ride Zeus but I really enjoy how the stretches make me feel and it takes me like 30 minutes a day and alongside some soothing, relaxing music it great. Highly recommend it and you don’t have to flexible to start! I always try to think of ways to help myself and like to share these with people especially with people like me who have had or having a hard time with mental health. Because depression, BDD, PTSD, eating disorders, Bipolar they are all soul-destroying, the destroy you as a person. Same goes for those battling addictions. You push people who care and love you away. The more support you have the greater your recovery, seeking help is very important to help you to become who you are again.
I just wish I never left it so long…but from the years of suffering, my non-existent shitty childhood has made me the person I am today. I’m caring, compassionate, loyal, generous, kind and will do my utmost to help somebody. I’m a shoulder to cry on and any problems shared are problems halved.