Fatigue

One thing that I’m blighted by is tiredness, I feel constantly shattered and thats enough to make anyone miserable and worse if you have mental health issues like myself. My youngest boy still doesn’t sleep through the night, he will turn 2 in February. I can’t remember the last time I woke in the morning feeling refreshed and ready for the day. Every time an alarm clock goes off a little piece of me dies inside.

Comes with this lethargy is lack of motivation and it’s hard to get out of the house, exercise to me is important it helps me keep focus as well as giving me an energy boost. The weather isn’t helping either, goes from one extreme to another. I’m no fair weather girl but I hate being cold, I feel cold enough as it is and it takes me forever to warm up.

I’m not really sure what I can do to help with my sudden lethargy. Being run down only makes it worse, I want to feel normal what ever that feels like. My husband can hop out of bed in the mornings no problem but for me lately it’s been a real struggle. I’m better when the sun is shining outside, I really can’t wait for spring. I think being on the festive holidays my whole clock is out of sync and today I was back at work and hopefully this will make a difference. I really hope it does.

Work keeps me focused and it gives me a break from the boys, I’ve been on a downer for a while now and really need something to boost me up, I was naughty and again forgot to take my medication regularly again it’s because I forget, I’ve been out of routine and let’s face it, when your a mum your priorities change so I fall to the bottom of the pile. It’s time I set a reminder alarm on my phone, to go off and basically shout at me to take my meds! These actually keep me sane.

I’m thinking of reintroducing running into my life, I use to run a lot before I had Rueben and participated in couple of 10k runs which leaves you with a buzzing feeling after you have completed any sort of sporting race or competition. It’s not about personal bests for me or anything like that but the feeling you get afterwards, a high I guess you can call it. An exercise induced euphoria. I have bad hips and knees so will need to invest in some decent trainers to absorb the shock of the pavements. It could be another focus for me as well as Zeus, walking, the boys, home keeping etc etc being busy for me is important. I like being busy it keeps me from my wandering mind.

Karina ❤️

Author: karinao86

Mother of 3 boys, wife to one man and lover of horses. Mental health sufferer in recovery.

2 thoughts on “Fatigue”

  1. sending you the courage to take just even one minute longer than you usually do, to care for your own self, to reconnect all that inside of you which feels in a state of discord or broken. you are worthy of a retreat in order to rejuvenate yourself, i swear to you. i am sending you all the courage in the world. 💙💙

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